It was the first time in several weeks that I went to the GLBT Center to do a volunteer stint. And if I didn't have a schedule to adhere to, I'd have stayed at home and hibernated some more. This is why I've tried to do things in the volunteer world - it prevents me from totally retreating from the world.
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Today's task at the GLBT Center was simple and monotonous. And that was perfect for the mood I was in. First, I had to update a spreadsheet with this month's dates for all planned support group meetings. Then, I had to transcribe the topics of peer group discussions into another spreadsheet. And finally, I had to enter all the volunteer hours on another spreadsheet. It's hard to believe that there is this much activity going on in a place where I usually don't see much activity.
While entering data into the spreadsheet for peer group discussions, I noticed how detailed the list was for the transgender groups. What I seem to have done on my own with research and online discussions, these people are doing in their peer groups. Our hopes, fears, and challenges are common - we just go about dealing with them in a very different manner. And there is no one right answer for all the questions we pose. Some of us deal with the anxiety of buying clothes, as I did in my early days of recognizing my transgender nature. Others are further along this path and are dealing with the issues of getting hormones and the physical changes the hormones do to the body. All of us are going in the same direction, but not all of us will reach the same goals, as each of us has to choose our final destination.
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After the GLBT center, I decided to look at the new offerings at The Avenue. They are finally getting in the Spring offerings, and I will likely buy a few T-Shirts for the summer, as I like their colors. But I am a little concerned. They may be rebranding some of their stores to go for a younger, less Zaftig customer - and Yonkers may be one of those stores. (Stana has noted this has happened with some of the Dress Barn outlets. But she has the body and shape where these changes will not be a bother for her.) Hopefully, they will still keep selling the size 28-30 clothing I need.
And then it was back home for the night....