Thursday, July 28, 2016
To blog, or not to blog - that is the question
Every night, I try to generate an entry for this blog. Sometimes, I have a lot to write about. And other times, I have nothing to write about. Even so, I try to get even a small piece of writing in each night.
More often as of late, I find that I'm writing about things related to being transgender in passing - if at all. But I do enjoy writing, as it is a healthy way of venting my frustrations at the end of the day. But then, when one doesn't have much of a social life due to work, it's hard to go out en-femme and enjoy the world.
The other day, I outed myself to my niece. I'm very surprised (in a pleasant way) how well she reacted when I showed her pictures of myself en-femme. As I noted in another entry, it was the first time she saw a really happy smile on my face. And I think that it is this inner happiness that finally is coming out that propels me to keep exploring life more as Marian, and less as Mario.
Recently, I've been thinking of changing the frequency of this blog. But I would lose contact with the people who really care about is going on with me. So I keep plugging away, as I feel that this blog is worth the effort I put in to it. Writing is a discipline, and doing a little bit of it each night helps a great deal. I find I'm better able to express myself, in part, because I have to try and do so on a daily basis.
When I eventually go on my late Autumn cruise, I will have over two weeks' worth of blog entries ready to go. Regular readers will easily sense when I'm away, and they will know how to tell when I've come back. And there will be stories to tell - virtually all of them being about spending time en-femme without any way of falling back to being Mario.
The most important thing I miss due to work is the time I used to spend en-femme. I had developed new friendships, and started to enjoy life for the first time. It was much easier to bond with people, especially women, as I was allowed by social convention to have a wider range of friendships....
Alas, it's getting late and I have to get to work early in the morning. So I'll sign off until tomorrow, and hope that your life is doing well....